Things that come with it (Asperger's 2)

Advantages to this is uniqueness but that like all positives come with a negative lowliness the worry to speak you're mind in fear of you being weird or mental, creativity and the fun child side which is meant to have been suppressed so you feel like your wrong and finally for the largest percent intelligence and memory they say the silver lining is our brains and how they work they list things that people with Asperger's might like which includes art (like drama)' science' sport' games (or coding games), maths and things that require creativity. Surly that's a wind branch but I used to be torn between astronomy and drama I chose to act because I wanted to act ever since I can remember and only realised my love for stars and space in the gcse years so I thought I owed it to myself to go for the thing I wanted longer. During this decision that I thought was really weird as there almost opposites so I asked for advice and the people who I assumed knew me because they put me in a box just said "people with your condition always go for things like that" and yeah that said it in a innocent. friendly and complete no menacing way but I was stuck almost shut down.

To think that something you've wanted and was passionate about could just be because how your brain is and that people with Asperger's chose that type of thing in the higher percentage it took me awhile to decide but with that knowledge I still couldn't shake of the need to try acting so I tried for college and got in. then I noticed a whole different board game from growing up for 7 years in an all boys boarding school to a mixed college one thing tripped me up so hard. Girls with no experience how was I to handle this I had no idea so I tried to go with the flow after a lot of learning and being afraid I think I learnt some things though some situations I had no idea what to do. See either all girls talk openly or I just found a weird bunch I fell you could say "Down the rabbit hole" with talks on bra's and sex yeah I knew of these things but from being dropped from a small school a 100 boys in the middle on nowhere into a thriving and busy active place was confusing for a average person I'm sure.

 after the two years skipping that whole phase of awkwardness and situations and people that I would rather forget I found myself once more in the presence of people who like these box names so much this time they had a class for me. See I have a identic memory for those that don't know what that means its basically a photographic memory on steroids and if you don't know what a photographic memory is look it up I'm not your bloody teacher so they had lessons for me z way to train my brain to make it stronger and organise all the thoughts and memories I had which where a lot.